I don't know. *The ravings of moi.*

I watched Dreamgirls.



I generally have a list of movies that leave me in a contemplative state of mind. And it's usually also very pessimistic. I thought I'd take the time to share. To show a sliver of a darker side... my darker side. The side that I try to keep locked well away, because it leaves me with a sorry feeling inside. Dreamgirls is one of the three movies that breaks the chains and demolishes the doors that hold the darker side back.



It's interesting how a complete stranger, who knows what he's doing can change the lives of so mane people for the worse. A man who was unknown to everyone just came in all of a sudden and in a matter of days was already calling the shots in a big singer's life and had three talented singers under his foot. An interesting quote: "Michelle, he can quit, but you can't."
It led me to think of all the big changes brought about by new faces. Are they really in the interests of the subjects? What happens to the people who don't want to go with the flow? There's a quote from a source I have forgotten, that goes like this: "Do not doubt that a small group of individuals can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that has." Now, let's bring one more aspect into it: in a small group of individuals, there is usually one person with the potential to have the rest of the group following his or her lead. Now, put two and two together and you get that one very powerful individual with a small group of influential followers (or henchmen) has the power to change the world. That is a very scary thought.



Immediately after watching the movie, I checked out Facebook. My old, once prestigious school has a group on Facebook, where the alumni and some students discuss issues regarding the school. If you haven't read my post on St. Mary's School, now's a very good time to do so. Here's the link. An old schoolmate of mine posted an interesting message. The thing is, the school is losing what we call the Saints Spirit, a very powerful tool in the life of any Saint. Now I'm sure that even someone who knows nothing of this spirit can understand the problem: the source of the Spirit, the institution that spreads the Spirit seems to be fresh out of it. Which means that the school isn't producing any more Saints. That's a problem that most alumni, who know of the problem, are trying to fix. And in my pessimistic state of mind, I looked at the situation with the eyes of a sceptic. If around 80% of the school population doesn't know what the Saints Spirit is and the 20% who DO know what the spirit is are in their last years of school, then, quite frankly, I have lost my hope. The Saints Spirit is gone. Getting it back will be unbelievably difficult.



This post has no real topic, I apologise. I'm hoping from one thing to another, simply speaking my mind. Dreamgirls is a very good movie and I strongly suggest you, my readers, watch it if you haven't. If you have, watch it again. You'll be surprised, what you missed the first time. One thing I got this time that I seem to have missed before was the determination of people. Someone who has been beaten to the ground, betrayed by the people most important and loved can keep going. I always believe that if there's a will, there's always a way, but if I were in a similar situation, I'd lose my will. It made me think: what's most important in my life? And, to tell the truth, I don't know. I really don't know. I have a lot of respect for my mother and she has this line that really annoys me sometimes: "If you don't know, then who does?" Right now I don't even have the answer to that question. I realised I'm lost at sea, with no hint of a direction and I can certainly say this: swimming in a sea with no direction can get VERY tiring.
In the movie, Effie White (Jenifer Hudson) was left alone at a time when she needed her fiends the most. The only thing that kept her and her newborn daughter safe was her love for singing. If I were to put myself in her shoes, I'm not sure what would happen. I have very many hobbies, but I also lose interest in them very fast. The only interests that have stayed with me for any measurable period of time are computers and physics. And physics has started to fade away. If I were in a situation where I was out of options, I don't know what I'd do, and that's a very scary thought.



I think that's enough rambling and raving for one post. You may notice that I didn't publicize this post. It was mostly to find out how many people actually have an interest in what I write. Feel free to comment down below on anything you feel like (so long that it is in some kind of context... any will do :D )